so it looks like I'm off to the coast again.. I dont even bother reading my own journal after reading it, so i cant remember if I mentioned my brother in laws accident or not. I'll just say it anyway.

the poor guy was crossing the street in Saudi when some jackass 'i'm so fucking rich and spoiled" saudi kid who probably doesnt even have a liscence to driver hits him at 140kph, shattering Haytham's tibia, multiple comminuted fracture of the right leg. He was lucky his body was out of the way of the car or my sister would literally be a pregnant widow right now. Not nice. the jack ass didnt stop, but he was caught 15 k later and although Haytham dropped charges (bc he is a nice idiot) he is still going to do time, so I feel a little better.

Still not on speaking terms with Nada, despite evryone trying to persuade me to talk to her for the sake that we were friends once. But I say fuck it. I'm not one to give up on a friend but she is a totally manipulative, lying, selfish brat, I dont have time to waste with someone like her.. we were friends for thetime it took me to realize what she really was, and thankfully now I see the truth.

Relationship with my mama is a little strange; I've always hated her for making my life hell, and she still does, that hasnt changed, but somehow I realize i feel more comfortable with her than anyone else, even Khaled. I know her so well I can anticipate her every mood, even her mood swings are predictable, and somehow I take comfort in that there is a pattern to her craziness.

Today I didnt wear any makeup..well, just a little eye liner, went out with wet ungroomed hair and looking at myself in the mirror now I think..yes that's right..I think I look kinda pretty today. Go me!

I've been eating healthy lately, which pretty much means I skip breakfast, eat a major fun salad putting anything I want in it, and maybe an apple and some fruit yogurt drink at night. I have no idea how much calories this amounts to but I'm biting the bullet for kookie and I hope this fighting temptation shit is gonna work. Hopefully the daily swimming thing for the next two weeks will whip me into shape as well. They say swimming burns a lot of fat, but I never saw it before. huh.

You know what paragraphs are made for? so when u get bored u can skip to the next paragraph and not miss anything.

I'm taking a lot of pojects to keep me entertained while I'm in sahel. I'm making a belly dancing costume (go ahead, laugh.. this baby will be reeling in the big bucks at parties if I so choose :P) and I'm also gonna make some photoalbums as gifts for a couple of friends.. but I'm most excited about making the candy bouquet to put Khaled's gift in. If u dont know what I'm talking about, check out www.candybouquet.com Its so fucking easy to make (i thinK) and its so much cheaper to just make it yourself. so I am. Not that this birthday is cheap by any means.. Khaled wants an elec. razor (at least 600 le) the bouquet stuff has cost at least 70 le, and I still wanted to give him perfume and a shirt, but frankly I dont have 1000 le at the moment.. so I guess the razor is just gonna have to due. :( I really wish I could give him the world this year for his birthday. I really miss him and want every moment we spend together to be absolutely special...perfect even.

My dad got the job at Perdue. He's moving to Indiana.. I guess it beats texas with a stick, but I dont know about the mid west.. never was a big fan. Oh well. At least if I visit this christmas (fingers majorly crossed) I will actually find WINTER clothes in the winter. I desperatly need a winter coat and egypt sucks or is so ridiculously expensive or both.

You know what is on MY wish list? a sony mp3 player. One of those itty bitty ones that only needs one AA battery which lasts for a looong time. None of this ipod crap for me. Just give me the older, boring but SMALL mp3 player to easily tote around my neck as I go jogging. :) If you're that rich older man whose been stalking me, now is the time to make your move. :)


Speaking of older stalkers, Loula has a college dr admirer, aka Robin. we thought he was Christian (everyone thinks she is, and hence we thought he was intersted in her for that reason..) but as it turns out, he's not. But she still thinks she can do better, probably bc loula wants someone who is just money and doesnt give her the time of day, and she will devote her whole life to him. I pity her.

Andrew went to LA and will be driving to vegas with emad, god help us all.. :) I miss them both. Andrew was really happy Dou and I went to have lunch with him before he left. He seemed really down still bc his ex's getting engaged and he got in a fight with some bigot assholes who called him some shit for being christian. he actually broke the guy's lights with a baseball bat (which I could NEVER in a MILLION TRILLION years picture andrew doing..he's the most docile, kind, santa claus-prototype you will ever meet) and afterwards, he blacked out bc he was hypertensive and he was taken to the hospital by ambulance. :( I gave him a big hug before he left and the guy looked like he would cry he was so touched. I really love him.

Ashraf, formerly known as the cool guy and Robert is now on the death list for being friends with hussein but more importantly for not returning my calls. either that or his bride of frankenstien live-in girlfriend didnt give him my messages, and either way, he's black listed in my book.

I feel like I've been talking alot..plus there is someone online I wanna talk to which involves more typing so I will save the last of my cyber breath for later. Peace out. enjoy the summer.